i wonder if i am dead how many people will be at my funeral.

how it will look like,

what songs will be playing!!

makes my wonder after i left this world what i will become???

will everyone who know me remember me??

what had happen to my grand aunt!!!! i saw my grandma with a super sad face!! i just dont know what i can do and they dont want to say anything!

how i wish i can call you my girlfriend for so long but it will not happen!!! so i just have to face reality!!!! and i have to control myself whenever we go out!!!! during the show that day i feel like holding you but i control myself and say we are just best friends nothing more then that!!!! i just had to keep myself to the show!!!!! saying that it will harm me if i would had hold you in my arms =D!!!! silly me but if what i am about to do makes you happy then i dont mind!

you are the first one that i have difficulty saying ok fine we stay as best friends!!! but i will still say it so that it will make you happy that is all i need you to be!!! sorry for the past 3 outing i think i was to full of myself hope that this 4th outing will make you happier for what i had not done!!!

hmmm why cant you just say a fucking hell word sorry!!!! soo difficult to say it?? fucking no balls to accept your wrong doings!!!! fucking coward!!!! how long you want to stay in the dark?? world end also still have not say sorry!!! this must be the answer right!

hahahahahaa change for the better!!!

I WILL CHANGE AND IF YOU TRY TO STEP ON THAT LITTLE TAIL OF MINE!!

I WILL HATE YOU FOREVER!