my life timetable just too messy want this and that

GREAT that grandpa operation is over and is successful!!!!! but still needed to be takecare!!!!

THANKS FOR THE NICE FRIED PRAWN MEE!!! thanks alot man fabian!!!! 9 years brotherhood hahaha 2 years no see leh change untill lyk i nvr noe u before hahaha!!!!

FCUKING CRAB first day go school let some stupid teacher catch me wearing white shoes!!!!

GOD gave me 7 days MONDAY- Friday is schooling and also enjoy my time with my school friends but Friday NIGHT GOD just want me to take this 2 hours to have funny and laughter and to talk to GOD with my cell group members!!! only on SAT first and third week I agree to service with my time to GOD to do BAY and also have fun and laughter with brother and sister and also new comer!!! and there is FFW on every sat 7pm to 9pm of teens services!!! and sunday there is adult service that i always wanted to go but no chances and there is sunday school and i have no chance too!!! but i have jamming on week 2 and 4 that cnt b change as i have my responsible part to do a part for GOD!!! YES this is my life!!!and sometimes i meet up with my manys years brothers lyk only during celebration or worse meet them when they are in the coffin!!!

well i am happy with you all(study group) super happy to be with and have enjoyable and happy times untill i cancel everything almost everything! don't even want to go church anymore and spend all my time with you all even my brothers birthday i aso skip and go out with you all!!!and even if im tired or have thing happen to myself i aso dun wan to let u all know!!!! dun wan to spoil yr party and fun!!!HAHA and worst sometimes im almost dying leh haha!!!! i know u all want me to grow stronger haha but im a sickly child who have some limit that is not as high as u all!!! i never want to spoil ppl mood haha is happy to see buddys have fun and laughter hahaha!!! not blaming anyone but myself for my selfishness i guess having cell on fri become spoil our outing as what u sae friday is a outing day!! i justdon't know what to do!!!im lost very lost!!!! AND NOW MUMMY trying to stop me from going out till so late!!mayb im to easily to make friends with until my timetable is taken up almost everyday no time for family!!! hahaa maybe i try to b anti-social!!!

YES I LIKE THIS GIRL......haha but i will not go more den besties!!! i rather stay on as besties with her!!! and not have relationship!!! hahaa i can say yes this is not something i can do but say!!!!but i will try my best not to fall deeper!!!

SORRY maybe not something you will want to heard from me as is make no reason for not going outing everytime but for birthday celebration I WILL BE MY BEST TO GO WITHOUT FAIL!!!im sadded tt i cnt enjoy myself if i did not go out with you all but i aso wan to have a equal share for all partys of every groups of brothers and sisters and buddys!!! I HOPE I WILL NOT BE OUTCAST BECAUSE OF WHAT I SAY!!maybe you all will think im a fucker to write all this!! but this is really what is in my heart now!!! i want to spend my time fully with everyone equally but i could not do it cause im NO GOD!!!

hope u will understand